…I was on a really rough path. An addiction to food could be the worst of them all because you HAVE to eat everyday to survive. I cried and wished I was an alcoholic, drug addict or even had cancer. That way you can run the other way and just cut it out of your life. You can’t escape food. My eating habits were never consistent. I grew up a competitive athlete and could eat whatever I wanted. When I stopped competing, I gained 60 pounds. A few years later I lost the weight by strict diet and obsessive amounts of exercise but was still miserable and hated the way I looked. I unknowingly turned to food instead of feeling any emotion, good or bad. It was my only comfort. I would stop at 4 grocery stores on the way home from work and get a meal at each one. I could eat 5,000 calories in one sitting. I would restrict, binge, purge, cut out food groups, exercise obsessively, try every diet – anything I saw or could think of. I was slowly killing my body and it wasn’t functioning. I don’t know what would’ve happened if I hadn’t met Mary because she literally saved my life. She is one of the most special people on this earth and I know everyone who has the privilege of working with her feels the same.
Mary provides a very safe and loving environment from the second you meet her. As hard as it is to admit your problems and ask for help, you know that you have to surrender to the process if you want to get your life back. Mary makes that very easy. In tough times you really need the support of your family and friends. It was even tougher for me because I didn’t have either of those. But I did have Mary. She was available 24/7 and I felt like I was the most important person to her and always a priority. Mary made me feel safe, loved, not judged and accepted. She has endless tools to help you through every situation. Everyone’s path to overcoming addiction and their issues is different. If a process or step doesn’t resonate with you, Mary will work with you and come up with a specialized plan that does.
Battling inner demons is the most difficult thing a person can go through. It is painful, miserable, you feel like you have no control. Mary not only got me through it, she helped me become the person I always wanted to be. Instead of obsessive thoughts, I enjoy the simple pleasures of life. I was never able to have food in the house, could never sit still or quiet my mind. Now I can. I hated looking in the mirror and kept thinking if I could only be skinny I would be happy. If I could just lose this amount of weight or have this amount of money or date this person then my life would be great. I was looking for something to fill a huge void. Most addicts do. Mary helped me identify that void and fill it within myself. She helped me to love and accept myself, something I never thought possible.
My life used to be run by food. I didn’t leave the house if I didn’t have to, wouldn’t eat in front of people and didn’t have anything in my life I enjoyed or anything to look forward to. There were times that I didn’t think I would come out on the other side but I can say that my addiction to food has no place in my life currently. People say once an addict, always an addict. That you will have to continuously fight everyday. At first, yes, you do. I struggled and had to fight every second. Now, after lots of hard work and help from Mary, that’s not the case. Addiction is a disease that can be overcome. As difficult as the process was, I am so grateful for it because I learned a lot about myself and now I truly feel liberated.”